wow.. i wonder if my family got into a flaming car wreck or something.. it's nearly 11 and i'm still here alone.. i shoulda started watching vampire hunter d bloodlust again to finish it... but then again, it's a little to late for that now huh? i was gonna watch it tomorrow anyways with the first one...

i'm listening to lamb of god bored offa my tuckus.. as you can see i changed around my diary in a major way.... what do you think? do you find it liberating? free from the constrains of what the base diary usually looks like? well... it was tough to fuck with it seeing as how i'm struggling with the html i already know... so if anyone came to see it, much like all the other times when i change my diary around i'm normally not done till about the 23rd time i update it.... my older entries didn't take to long.. i kinda kept it similar... it reflects a bit more of take my scars now... but i'm pleased with the results.. now if i ever feel like it i'll change my guestbook.. but that's not gonna be for a while.. i think it's way to pimpin already to completly re-work it...

by the way.. the image i'm using is a copyrighted image and i wanna give full props to the artist who made this kick ass piece of digital art (that i squashed to somewhat alter the appearance and make my diary more compact) he's one of the featured artists this month on opi8.com (note the lack of a digital apocalypse link at the top.. it's cos i found a kick ass fckin banner on the site that you can use to go there whenever... that is if scary bio-mechanical decaying images delight you as much as they do me).. but yeah.. the artist is erick d. panavieres or edP if you will... i think he's becoming yet another favorite artist of mine... granted he doesn't have a website i can steal from yet *l* that's listed anyways you can check out his other artworks on opi8 this month here... i don't wanna take from someplace and not give proper credits for it... after all this is just my diary, it's not like i'm making money offa this or liscencing it.. i'm plugging if anything.

yeah.... i've got a pretty tight playlist going on right now... full on hardcore cave in your mom's face with a cinder block playlist.

lamb of god-new american gospel
soulfly- primative (new album "3" comes out tuesday)
burnt by the sun-soundtrack to personal revolution
atreyu-suicide notes and butterfly kisses
december-the lament configuration
dillinger escape plan-calculating infinity
superjoint ritual-use once and destroy
curlupanddie-unfortunatly we are not robots
eyehategod- confedaracy of ruined lives
nailbomb- proud to commit commercial suicide
down-II
converge-when forever comes crashing
hatebreed-satisfaction is the death of desire

so eah.. i'm feelin pretty metal heavy right now... i love how there's barely any difference between metal and hardcore nowadays.. now it just seems to get lost up in the genres of metalcore and grindcore.. i love how everything's got it's own core nowadays.. but it's fun like all get out to say, so i have to be accused of spreading around various cores, such as metal/grind/emo/rap/hard/sludge/noise/horror-ect. cores.

i coulda sworn i had my carcass cd out here someplace... even though i'm not really in a death metal mood... carcass is one of those few death metal bands that actually doesn't suck, and for this i am glad... along with cannibal corpse, gorefest, hypocracy, goatwhore, and deicide... i think that's about it.. everything else falls under something else... black metal however has no hope for redemption.. there's so few black metal bands actually worth listening to, and this is a shame... and it's also a shame that 2 of the few black metal bands actually worth listening to are the ones the metal community have accepted, like dimmu borger and cradel of filth... but at least they kick ass.... it's kinda a shame that metal's on the outswing.. but it's a very good thing that we wont be seeing any shitty record label assembly aquired nu-metal fuck ups out there running around anytime soon... i was pretty disapointed this morning as i heard some new korn song on the radio today that wasn't here to stay, and it was pretty cool, but the riff actually coulda been written by anybody... it was so dishearting that such a generic nu-metal riff came out of korn... i mean i dismissed it that it was pretty cool, and that korn started that whole fad anyways (well... are the most recognized for it.. especially with bands like faith no more)

you know it always seems that when my family comes home all hell breaks loose... i mean for reals.. everytime i've been home when everyone else is home there's always some huge argument... sometimes i wonder why i even come home at all... oh yeah, cos my phone computer and room is here... and that;s the only way i can sleep and talk to missy.... well i could thru other means but i bet tose i leech offa would tell me to get the fuck out of their house... but seriously, just once i'd like everyone to just shut the fuck up and stop being so pissy to everyone... please... is that to much to ask? i get tired of everyone yelling, and me jsut being quite while they bicker and bitch about me and everyone else in the other room, but i sit here and take it like i hear nothing.. i hate living here.. i really fucking do.. there's not a single enjoyable moment when everyone's in this house.. i guess i just live in the typical dysfunctional home of the future... why wasn't it like this on the jetsons? or do we have to flash ahead a couple hundred more years to get at blissful family harmony with hilarious circumstances here and there, not to mention talking dogs named tralfazz.... god i can't wait till missy's here and we're out of this fucking house.. i can't wait... i just can't wait.. no seriously.. i'm sick of waiting.... i can't wait any longer

-excelsior-