i'm having a most delightful conversation with my slut reviewer chick pea, and i'm having quite a great time... so i don't find a need to type here today... also, it's not like i did much of anything except take naked pictures of my girlfriend last night, and get really drunk... and we had the sex... hot sex... the kind where you tear each others clothes off before you get inside your house, and when you do you just dive for each other and it gets all crazy and hot and BAM!

we also went to studio suite for the first time since nikki's had her little burlesque doohickey... and we sang kareokee and had a wonderful time being assholes, and kathryn and i sang the doors together. it was cute... i want to sing more songs with her, but she normally needs more drinks than i do in her to muster up the gumption... that fucking cunt.

it's always so hard for me to focus whenever i try to write an entry and there's people around me that i'm trying to talk to... my mind doesn't divide itself very well. like i'll be talking on the phone, and trying to write about something, and instead of doing both okay at the same time, i end up splitting time between the 2 and doing it really half assed. like monday when johnny came over (this reminds me i have to make a johnny head for the cast page) and i was trying my best to answer his questions about FFXI, while playing the game, and i had him and kathryn telling me to ask where some chick i was in a party with was from, and trying to play the game, and smoking pot all at the same time... these activities ended up with me basically sitting there with my brain trying to comprehend exactly where the fuck i was. i kinda sat in silence staring blankly at the status screen for a minute till my mind caught up enough to actually respond to each person and thing one by one (answering johnny, asking the chick where she lived, smoking a bowl, then killing a monster.). i guess i'm not good at mental multi tasking, i get sidetracked so easily, which tends to lead to my doom more often than not. situations normally break down like this. i'm in the middle of a huge rant about human kind not being fit to lick the dogshit off of my boot heel, then kathryn will come in the shop, or the phone will ring, or sometimes it's kathryn on the ringing phone. i try to continue writing, but i also now have to pay attention to this phone call i just got... needless to say those 2 wires get crossed in my mind, and i try to stop doing one of them, but it just doesn't work out that way, and i end up doing nothing and going "what? what?" a whole lot.

there's really no one event in my life i can link this condition to, i've always been a bad multi-tasker (even though i always lie about that on interviews... i'm a wonderful multi-tasker and i have such a chipper personality.) like right now, i'm focusing more on this industrial mix i made kathryn than writing... i get distracted rather easily... i don't think it's ADD though, i can stay focused on certain things for a good long while... mostly videogames and CD's... but when i think about it... i do exemplify a lot of attention deficit disorder traits. in fact even when i'm doing the aforementioned tasks of listening to music and playing videogames i always get up in the middle and futz with something else, then i get back to the task at hand. i also rarely do just one task at once, i always have all my fingers in a different pie. i rarely finish things i start, i fidget a lot... i think i might be ADHD... that would suck.

hey, wanna go ride a bike?

-excelsior-