i think i'm going to make it some kind of daily whathave you to show everyone just the type of shit that my diary gets found with on a day to day basis.

take exhibit a... now why in the holy mother of god fuck would people be 1)looking for pictures of scott stapp naked, or 2)actually click on my diary for it? why? i mean why? that's wrong on so many levels and in so many planes of existence. what kind of wierd dumb bastard are you looking for naked pictures of that guy from creed?

for one, the man is not attractive, 2: he's a god damn moron who's hooked on pain killers, 3: even jesus hates him, 4: you probably listen to creed, which would obviously show the mental retardation to find that guy hot enough to want to look at his nude body anyways (no offense jaderz), and 5: if i find out someone else ever looks up something along those lines again, i will make it my personal mission to find where you live and beat you to death with a whompin stick, because people like that need to be taken out of the gene pool FAST! and while i'm on it i think i'll have to put that stapp dipshit out of his pill popping misery as well.

today i've been working on my 90's uber-mega mix, and i've got 1990-1992 done so far, and i'm beginning the first disc to 1993 as i type, but i will most likely be done by the time this reaches your eyes... in fact, i can bet on that... this is what i've been doing my whole live long day.

it's pretty damn fun looking back at all these jams i used to grow up on, remembering old bands long forgotten, remembering songs i once thought swallowed load but now i can possibly stomach listening to them with that little hint of nostalgia to mask their really bitter flavor... fuck, even color me badd doesn't seem as aweful nowadays......... okay i lie, they still suck. but i've still been having a blast doing all this mess. granted there are a few songs i intentionally put on despite them not quite being in the 90's (a few from 2000, and a few from before 1990, but i kinda slid them into years when i remember their music video being played, or when i heard it on the radio.) but for the most part, it's a pretty damn accurate description of the 1990's musical climate. it's also kinda cool to see like 90 and 91 with the very first little emerging bits of alternative rock, but on the whole the airwaves where getting rid of the very last bits of corporate hard rock and pop. new wave was burried deep in the earth, and industrial was forming from it's rubble, and gangsta rap was replacing the political outcry and mostly good times rapping of the old skool.

in 92 when nirvana successfully toppled michael jackson for the no.1 spot on the charts, it signaled in the beginning for acts that normally would go under the radar for the entirety of their career to be dropped in the mainstream. more "grunge", and "alternative" acts came to the head of the musical pack. this was actually the beginning of what could have been a golden age for music. unnacessable, DIY ethic bands that got to stardom by just playing how they felt, and bands that really pushed the envelope of what's considered a song where now on MTV. there was still a lot of pop stuff going on, but glam rock was basically a dead issue, along with most of the other bullshit from the 80's that people where tired of 4 years ago. also long gone was the excess and love of sex/ drugs/ and rock n roll from the 80's. generation X had come to fruition, being raised more on punk rock and hardcore and not so much the zeppelin and sabbath of their parents, and being raised more by single parents than happy homes. with all of these circumstances, it's little suprise that all this mostly seattle born music struck a chord with disenfranchised teenagers all across the world.

of course 93 and 94 saw more emergance of talent from the alt-rock underground scene, but unfortunatly with kurt cobain's death, everyone began the mad dash to find the next nirvana, and find it fast, that 95 and 96 saw an over abundance of cheesy alt rock bands trying to cash in on the soft loud verse chorus verse structure laid out by nirvana.

unfortunatly with the break up of soundgarden in 96, it kind of signaled the end for good commercial alternative rock, and it had one last year in the sun. then in 97 nu metal took over, and basically destroyed music till the end of the centry. of course durring the 97-99 nu metal reign, that's when blink 182 and their ilk of snot nosed green day rip offs came in to take care of the rest of modern alternative rock radio's play list. with this great collapse of musical integrity and everyone pretty much out just to either write the toughest macho asshole song possible, or the wimpiest my girlfriend dumped me now all i do is mastrubate to bear porn anthem, music fell into the great terrible amalgum that is now the musical genre known as emo today. all of that metal whathaveyou mixed in with the whiney "emoting" lyrics from skate punk became the foundation for bands such as thursday and as i lay dying, and pretty much any other group of 5 assholes with stupid mop hair playing not very heavy metallic riffs with "punk influence" and lyrics about how they wanna slit their wrists all the time because they have no soul or some bullshit, coupled with an unweildy long poetic name... this is where we're at now in the musical timeline. and to think jsut 10 years ago, it was the very beginning of the end for all of this non-sense, and i still have to put up with jack ass 13 year olds telling me how much they love nirvana.

by tomorrow i'll probably be done with my cd's (hopefully), and i'll give you the track list.

it's pretty depressing to think that even all the vapid teen pop of the late 90's didn't even damage music like nu metal and pop punk did.

fuck you limp bizkit, and fuck you new found glory, and all you other dipshits that just had to write crappy albums and have your record lables push you onto the idiot masses, thus making you buy it all and now we have to put up with sub-par radio playlists handed down by clear channel, and there's still this mad rush to find the next nirvana.

guess what fuckers... kurt cobain's dead. music isn't about money, it's about soul expression and that special kind of release you get from a great song... stop trying to manufacture this shit and maybe music can be great again.

and to all those 2nd 3rd ect. hardcore bands that all suck... fuck off and die should be all of your band names... leave the music up to people who know what they're doing. assholes

-excelsior-