aight i just polished off a couple episodes of the simpsons and i'm making dinner for me.. i was supposed to be eating already but i was a bit upset... i have to run down my gas in my car so i was driving around aimlessly for a while in the hopes to go visit cullen and get some food.... i went and was driving down victory and my car started being really out of line... you see this pisses me off.. if it's gonna be doing this it's gonna be very very hard to wear down the gas i have in my tank... especially in this city.. cos man people are such fucking assholes and the streets are rarely empty.. unless i decide to go driving at midnight.. and even then even though there's a million otehr fucking lanes that the asshole could choose some fuck always pulls up right behind me and rides my fucking tail as soon as my car starts jerking...... why california drivers are such stupid fuck wads i'll never know.... i mean fuck just get into the lane next to me and go around i'm not gonna go anywhere.. assholes... it's little things like that that piss me off... i don't know why little shit always gets to me... but what really gets to me is that my car is so fucking out of line... i'm really now looking up to having to take it in if it's more than just my fuel tank being dirty.... and why did this shit work so great when i first put it in and now it's getting all sortsa whack on me still? i guess the repeated treatments are the only thing that'll tell.... i still have 3 more to do..... which means 3 more fill ups.... fuck man... and i might have to do 4 more cos the tanks pretty fucking whack.. why does stuff like this always happen to me? i try so hard to work up to it.. it takes me forever to do, and by the time i get what i've been working for it's falling apart at the seams.. i fucking hate life. it's enuff to make a guy ram his fist thru somoene's face and watch them spit out blood and teeth fragments.... yeah that'd be sweet.... you know i've forgotten a lot of what i've been saying lately.. like seriously i can't recall conversatins worth shit anymore.. i can tell you i talked to someone today but i'll be damned if i can tell you what was said... which is kinda funny sicne i haven't been stoned in so long.. i also haven't gotten laid in quite some time..... it's been since like the middle of january.... and before then it was the end of june... both times i coulda done without.... in fact... the last 3 people i've had sex with i really coulda done without..... danielle was very hot though.... she was the person before crack whore edna... and she was pretty damn good to... she knew what was up cos well my dick's da bomb.... my dick's da bomb baby baby baby yeah..... anyways... aside from msi quotings... yeah i had a nice run for a while.. i mean before edna amy and melanie i had danielle, gina, liz, callie, and gina again (this is in reverse order) you know i know there's someone in between there someplace but i can never remember it for the life of me.... ooh yeah... how can i forget.. theresa... actually before me and gina did... we had sex outside of bobi's grandparent's house in the rain.... it was like 2 days after we broke up.. and i was hanging on gina and her... actually at first i wasn't even doing anything with gina cos her sister was there and so was theresa... you know what was funny about theresa is that she was 14 and she was already fucked up sexually... needless to say she was probably abused as child... cos that's the only way that girls get loopy like that as far as i've seen..... guys to.. i mean even though i see myself as pretty normal in the sack there's some whack shit i enjoy... i mean i don't htink fucking animals is cool.. and i don't squirt when i see midgents getting spanked wearing gimp masks... and i've never tried the whole tying someone up thing.... i dunno... just never saw a need for it.. i like the idea of full body movement... missy wants me t.. and i feel pretty nervous about it. okay scratch that.. i feel REALLY nervous about it.. but i'm willing to give it a go and try my best with it for her... it does seem kinda cool.... i mean if you look at it, it's a woman willing to compleatly give herself over to you and she's helpless to it all... fully trusting you to just do what you please..... this is why i could never handel being tied up... i can't take it... but speaking of theresa she couldn't cum unless the guy came first and then went back to work on her... and also she refused to use condoms... hmmm.. a 14 year old chick that refused to use condoms.. why did i have sex with her? ....... oh yeah she was hot and we where horney and out in the rain.... but yeah.. in the letters she would write me at school she would talk about how much she fantasized about me being up in her and all that.. she was really shy in public but man was she a fucking dynamo in bed.. but she had this wierd thing about not touching her breasts... she was uncomfortabe about em.... i thought they looked nice... but she let me culley and ryan all finger her later that night.. but we couldn't touch her tits... wierd, but then again there's gotta be something behind it...

moving on.... i'm doing money planning with my mom listening to love will tear us apart by joy division. i've gotta give my head a shave again.. i think i'll do it tomorrow. my nose is all stuffy from wiggity whack wiskas tha feline with tha flava. i was playing with him (or her, i haven't checked em yet for such knowledge.) and now i'm all stuffy... stupid allergies... i never can recall having a problem with allergies when i was little... and don't you normally grow OUT of stuff instead of growing IN to it? weak sauce. just plain old weak sauce. you know after thinking about it, the dealio with my car aint ot shabby... i just have to wait around for a while.. granted it's gonna be frustrating but at least things are better than before... things before just sucked a fat ballsack, not they suck a much smaller ballsack.. they still suck.. oh yes they still suck.. just not as much..... and speaking of sucking, i have to go do the dishes and give myself feliatio..... even though i should probably stay away from that since it's a possible killer for me.

-excelsior-