hey look at me.. i'm all hot and sweaty... fuck the system fuck the system.... everything is jsut pissing me off left and right.. christ man i just wanna fucking punch somone... i hate it when my mom goes off in her little "i'm queen of everything" moods.. she pisses me off so bad cos i'm always her target.. only cos i'm the only one in this house that will stand up to her... i get so tired of her not listening to jack shit anyone has to say i'm sick of her shit trying to tell me how to live, i'm sick of her telling me how to spend MY money that I worked for... not her me.. i worked for it.. she works for hers and i don't spend hers now do i.. i spend my money.. i pay rent to live in her house.. i pay for my own food, i don't eat thiers, i pay for my own car (which she's been lollygagging on the fucking work that needs to be done... and she says that she wants me driving my car more) and gas and, cd's and whatever else i fucking need.. she doesn't I DO....i think that since i am paying her rent.. i am paying for all of MY things... she's the one that should be shutting the fuck up and not bitching about jack shit i fucking do.... i don't think i should have to do things around the house outside of my own affairs.. i mean it's not like anyone fucking wants me around anyways.... dave bitches about me being lazy.. when all i do is fucking work.. the last thing i wanna do on my days off is do more work.. especially around a house that i don't even feel supported or accepted in.. and most of the time all i wanna do is talk to missy.... so i try to do that.. it's not like i'm living with her yet where i don't have the luxury to see her beautiful shining face everytime i want to... i'm sick of my mom calling me a fag.. i'm sick of my mom bitching about the clothes i wear how i do my hair the music i listen to.. i'm sorry i didn't get the holy member up my fucking ass and become a jesus freak like she's brainwashing ashley and cassandra with... or like they think anthony is.. stupid mother fucker... i'm so sick of that little shit to.. he bitches about not being able to drive the van.... fuck man i didn't get half the support when i was 17 to drive that that fuck stick did.. he bitches that he wants his own room.. FUCK YOU MAN he doesn't even know half of the shit i put up with sharing a room with that twat.. i can barely get to sleep with him snoring and talking and grinding his fucking teeth.. i can't listen to music barely with him in there and i need music to fall asleep.. i always have since i was fucking 6 years old.... it seems like there's always to much to bitch about and never enuff time to bitch... like most of the white trash that goes to rocky.. i have a big problem with rocky people wise.. like there's most of them who're the type that wanna be so fucking phreek like that they wear all this shit and parade around going "oooh i'm so insane!!! i'm a freak!!! look at me everyone I'M CRAZY!!!! and it makes me wanna control my impulses to jsut randomly blurt out things like i always do.. just cos i have pretty shitty impulse control.. they're usually the assholes trying to say how cool they are that they're going to hell and when i make fun of them with a comment obviously waaaaayyyy over their heads they resort back to the "i'm so evil i'm such a freak oh my god i'm the most self important piece of ape shit being fucked on a stick with a wildebeast ever!!!" then you have the assholes that are virgins but wanna hide the fact they are virgins so they dress all crazy bt you still know they're virgins reguardless.. tehse people are usually 14 year old girls... and then there's rocky purests... these assholes are all "i've wasted the past 30 years of my life away in a movie theater every week watching this movie.. i know every call line word in the script note of a song.. these are the people i jsut wanna tell that they're fucking pathetic.. i wanna really stab them with a ball point pen.. but there are no pens allowed at WUT... anyways.. i can't biutch anymore.. i have work.. i'll probably be in a better mood when i get home hopefully.. but then again it's saturday so it could get worse.. you never know.. i'm trying to stasy optomistic... but i'm getting home at 10 tonight.. i jsut hope missy's still gonna be on at 1 am... for me.. even if i don't get to talk to her long.. i jsut wanna talk to her.. cos at least it'll be something to cheer me up

-excelsior-